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Pain and Suffering…

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So, it goes like this . . .

 

There is too much pain and suffering in the world, can’t we just all get a little valium?

Uh.

I mean love.

Eeek!

Be well,

Belle

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All I Need . . . Poet A B C’s

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So, it goes like this . . .

 

All I need is here in this

Boy’s smile. He

Cures me and quiets the 

Devil that resides within me.

Evening itself inside me. Resolving the tension, though the string is taut and fragile.

Friend or foe, he

Guides me. For

He knows me, and loves me rightly. Little does he know the weight of that affection.

It lies inside him. Throbbing with pain or hope, he cannot define it. Nor does he want to.

Jaded, my light shines upon him.

Kind his eyes are, though

Lowly they look. Shy and tentative.

Mindful, he feels he

Needs to soothe me. To move me. Though I am already moved.

Overwhelmed by his honesty.

Pitiful I lie there. A

Queen is how he sees me. A somewhat inaccurate reality.

Restful he finds me, though I am fitfull in my 

Sleep. He dreams of better 

Times, while I just lie there and dream. Happiness runs round the room, and we corner it as if by chance.  

Under the wake of our history of life and

Vows,

Will love be enough to

Xist in this kind of life? With my kind of battle marks?

Yet, he waits for me to catch up to him.

Zany love is all that I can give him. 

          Will it be enough for a life of time? 

                    For a real kind in all ways?

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Be well,

Belle

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Widow Rings

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So, it goes like this . . .

 

When I became a widow five years ago, I too, was very confused.  After a long while, I decided to wear my ring around my neck on a thin black ribbon.  The ribbon was from a present that my kids gave me from a packaged candle “to help me light the way.” 

Poetic.

Then after another long while, I took the ring off entirely.  When that time came, it sort of released me.  And at that time it felt good. Someday it will feel good for you, too.

Breathe out.  Breathe In. Take one step. Then, another.

Be well,

Belle

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Sweep me off my feet, please . . .

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So, it goes like this . . .

 

I feel for you friends that are out there.

You wish that someone great would come along and sweep you off your feet, right?

Well, some days there is just no feet-sweeping. I hate to tell you, but some days are just full of stinky feet.

Men and women alike, I think ultimately, want to find that special someone regardless of whether they have been single most of their life or married. I wish I had good news to report but I don’t. Sometimes you think that you’ll meet some special someone, and then you don’t hear from them and you don’t know why. You didn’t hear from him yesterday, no phone call, no future plans.

Do you want to give up on the fairytale?

Heck no, kids! Persistence, man. You have got to be relentless.

Meeting someone is about as tiring as a full-time job. It’s a numbers game. You may be tempted to compare the people that you met with someone in your past.

Is it right, or fair? To the other person? To you? Would you really want to do the same thing over when you have this second, third, fourth, fifth, seventieth chance? Aren’t there some things that you ultimately want to change? I know it may have seemed perfect in the past, but maybe it was just perfect because it sits in the past. We have a way of idolizing things that we can’t touch anymore.

I understand this, because I am a widow.

I can’t touch my past. They are times when I look at it and I wonder, I really wonder, if it was as perfect as my memory paints it.

And, I have to tell you, that the past was full of wonderful times, but the past was also full of dirty socks, occasional bad breath, and moments when you just wish that you were somewhere else.

So, when you go on the next coffee date with a potential Mr./Ms. Wonderful, give fate a chance.

Let your toes dance on an unknown path of love.

Try someone new, something new, and maybe it won’t be the same as before, but singing in harmony with someone can be awfully pleasing.

Keep shooting for the goal . . . but in the meantime, just enjoy the game.

Keep those cards and letters coming!

Be well,

Belle

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